Poems by an Adoptee

My name is Andrew Ric Heyer. My adopted parents put Andrew in front of Ric, which is the name I responded to when I was young. Why they put Andrew I will never know. I think I was adopted when I was 2 and on the way to the U.S. my friend gave me a black eye with a Tonka truck. Although I don’t remember this, that is the story I was told.

My adopted parents have given me a wonderful life and I am forever grateful for that. Although it took me a very long time to say that. For the longest time I was very angry and hurt that I was given up. Why would someone do that? What was wrong with me. It took me a long time to come to grips that there must have been a good reason and should be thankful for everything my adopted parents have given me. Truth be told, I am still working on fully accepting my adopted parents, but its a work in progress.

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~ Memories ~

with these outstretched arms I reach for you

songs of sadness scream the pain I feel

ripped away from the only comfort I have known

separated for reasons I will never know

in slow motion I watch you fade away

yearning for your touch

longing to be held and loved

a boy forced to be a man to soon

by those deeming you unfit to care for your son

all those precious moments

lost between a mother and son

memories never to made

I wish for them now

for I have found you to late

rest now, I hope you found the peace you searched for

mother..

~ Mother ~

I’ve been sitting in this room so dark and alone

trying to find a place where I belong

grasping at the nothingness which surrounds me

covered in this shroud of darkness, unable to break free

desperately searching for a peacefulness amongst all this confusion

so cold and lost

this constant inner turmoil of which I struggle against

silently destroys the remnants of my inner sanctuary

so many questions, so many pieces without a place

you left me here so small and afraid

maybe you found what you were looking for

but, perhaps you needed only look in front of you

why did you leave me….mother….

~ My Angel ~

soft summer breeze gently caressing my face

whispering soft words of love in the afternoon

passionate kisses lasting forever and a day

here in the twilight our bodies intertwined

two becoming one

beneath the setting sun our worlds collide

all of our inhibitions melting away

your tender touch soften my tough facade

all my fears dissolve into oblivion

relinquishing control of my soul to you

nothing in this world can harm me

I feel so safe and loved when I’m with you

in this world, through all the madness

I find shelter and comfort in your arms

my angel, my small piece of heaven, on this earth